Its about Time

Well, it is about time that this marriage is over. The silly man decided to hook up with a silly chick who was hooked up with a seriously bi sexual man prior to him... while we are still married I might add. The girls biggest goal in life is to be a head teacher at La Petite academy. Hooray for her, while I was busy helping him get his MBA and helping him get his job he was steady lying. as usual.

How gross is it to know that your ex has had some type of phyical relationship with a woman who will kiss and maybe even sleep with someone who isn't even a down low brother he is an out front brother. Some people are so wounded I guess that they will get with anything. That is how I landed up where I am now. I was wounded. Now I am being healed.

It doesn't surprise me that it turned out this way considering the company he keeps.
He keeps company with the likes of JBW and TW lll - nuff said. Since him and TWlll grew up together and TW beat the crap out of her(JBW)... well what does that tell you about the mentality of the man? If you know anything about what I am talking about then you will understand. Juanita is smart though she had enough sense to call the police.

I didn't and when he pushed me and broke my back... well here I am three years later with a foot of metal in there and him cheating again. Even though I put him out of the house and he is living with his parents he is a tard for trying to do dirt in the Church.

I am a tard for even writing it down. Even though the younger crowd likes to play on myspace, that does not mean that blogger has to become a bitter place for me.
The Lord will avenge me and I don't have to worry about what people say. I am not the one who is a whoremonger or a whore.

Neither am I a liar who claims to be righteous.
I am simply a sinner saved by grace.

I can't wait to see what God has in store for me because the hell that he has put me through is not even funny.

I pray for him because I know that he is struggling with his own issues, but MY GOD- the same mistakes over and over and over.... all hurting me? NO more I am done.
Stick a fork in me.

All I want is for him to be happy but no longer at my expense. I will be happy with or without him, I will not be a scorned woman or bitter, because I know that I am expecting great things to come my way.

This is my latest path
he has the papers, lets see what he does with them. If I don't like what I see, then I guess we will just stay married until it becomes what I need it to be. God will work it out.

In the mean time... Life goes on.

Darkness falls

*sigh*


Is the anger all worth the extra pressure on my blood vessel walls? I don't think so. Can't I just run away from it all and stop feeling like someone is slitting my wrists with rusted razor blades, rubbing salt and vinegar in at the same time?

My head is pounding and my stomach is reeling. I hate this feeling. It is like being cold inside and hot outside. Kind of like defrosting chicken.

My hands are shaking and my eye is twitching, but to the outside world I am OK.

I am waiting for the lawyer to call me, I am waiting for the doctor to call me with my results... Hurry up and wait... hurry up and wait...

Mammas got a brand new bag

So this blog is about my daily misadventures and machinations.

If you would like to leave comments please feel free. But know that if you leave comments that are rude or stupid I will delete them or respond in a very mean fashion.

that is to be determined based on which of my mood swings is in high gear. Ya never know.

Have a nice day.